I grew up in Germany, and spent most of my life there. And yet, I never felt at home in Germany, never liked living there. If Germany was a family member of mine, it would be a heartless, cold, disapproving stepdad—that's how I'd describe it.
But I don't want to feel that way. My family lives here, many of my friends live here, and whether I like it or not, Germany will be part of my life for the rest of my life. So in this episode, I'm wondering how I can improve my relationship with Germany? What kind of inner work will it take to make Germany a place that I like staying at?
Shownotes: https://steliefti.com/the-way-i-feel-about-germany/
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